RAWRRRR

What the hell. Why can't you just let me be happy??? Today started off crappy. But I got over it and had a good time at the christmas party. I got to see little baby Conner, and spend some time with the family. I was told I was going to be getting a new computer. I got to do something other then sit at the computer all day.

After the party I find out some good news. I finally thought that it was all over... but no. That would be too freaking perfect. The good news is pretty much just a cover up.

There is just too much going on. I don't want Melissa to leave. I want my life back. I want my friends back. I feel like every things going no where. Theres only one speck of hope in my life at the moment. One. tiny. speck of pathetic hope. Wayyy out there.

I don't think I'm getting a new computer either. I just don't believe in miracles anymore.