You know what I love in a movie

Scenes where really calm music is played over an intense scene. The kind of scene that makes your back tingle and your eyes tear up. When a movie does that to me... I feel like I've taken something out of it. I feel like I've changed.

A movie did that to me last night...
I stayed up all night - just thinking.

To You I'm a Toy

Ugh. Today kind of sucked. I'm just really glad I have Kaylee there for me =) Vanilla bean's and hugs are the best cures for anything.

I really like winter by the way. I don't think I've ever liked winter as much as this year. The cold is kind of a turn off... but this year all of the snow so early, it's really amazing. It just blankets everything in a simple layer of fluff.
I love it.

I don't know why.

But I don't feel any better. I kind of feel worse. Well... I guess I don't know how I feel. My mind keeps going back to the "what if"s and "how come"s. I probably should have let it just be. Before I brought it back up I had at least been able to keep it in the back of my mind. Some memories are better left untouched I suppose? I just want everything to be back to normal.

It's time to move on,
again.